I am feeling so overwhelmed with life right now. Hunter is going on his 5th day of being sick, which means that I have had very little sleep. Jesse was on the east coast on Sunday and Monday. It's the 1st of the month, which means that work is crazy in the accounting world. It just seems like sometimes there are times when a mom can't get a break.
Here's what yesterday looked like (and so far today has not been much better):
3am - Hunter woke up screaming because he was so congested that he could hardly breathe. He didn't go back to sleep.
4:45am - My alarm goes off, time to get ready for work. Hunter wasn't happy with that and proceeded to throw a tantrum until I was done getting ready.
6am - Get Hunter and Henry all packed up in the car and leave for work.
6:45am - Drop Hunter off with Grandpa
4:30pm Doctor appointment for Hunter. The doctor says that he has a bad head cold, the beginning of an ear infection, and 3 of his eye teeth are coming in. He said to expect for him to have a rough week and give him Tylenol for the fever and pain.
5:30pm Feed Hunter dinner and get changed for the gym
7-8pm Clean the kitchen, play with Hunter, get him ready for bed, and then put Hunter down.
9pm - Hunter wakes up screaming and doesn't fall back asleep until midnight.
12:30am Jesse gets home from his trip
4:45am Time to start it all over again
I'm sure all mom's feel like it at sometime or another, but it just seems like life is going too fast for me. It seems like several days can go by without having a minute to relax or not go a million miles a minute. It's days like these that make me wonder if I am doing the right thing by working full time. Am I letting life take me in too many directions that I'm not getting enough quality time in with my son?
And then I realize that only a couple days a week are like this. Jesse is not always gone, Hunter is not always sick, I get more sleep than this 99% of the time, and I have 3 day weekends every week that I get to spend with my family. I just need to take a deep breath and not sweat the small stuff.