Between last weeks sermon about using our words as blessings to others and this week's chapter in my weekly devotional about God being so faithful and forgiving, the idea of taking everything to the Lord first, has come to me.
Our God is stronger than our family and friends. He can handle our negative and mean thoughts a 100% better than they can. God does not expect us to be perfect and I do think it's very normal to have angry and bitter feelings at times. I pray that I learn to take these thoughts to the Lord instead of lashing out at my husband, venting with a co-worker, or growing impatient with friends. God is not worn down by these things like our family and friends are.
If I can do this more often, I think my personal relationship with God will grow and also my relationship with others, especially my husband, will grow as well. It is silly, but when I go to God, it is usually to praise him or to ask for help when I have a need or someone else is hurting or going through a rough time. I rarely go to him because I am mad or frustrated with the daily things in life. I take it out on my husband or I vent to other people close to me. The words I speak to them at those times, are not blessings, they are negative and drag them down in the process.
Some of our thoughts are not meant to be said aloud. I am ashamed that I let one of these thoughts out of my mouth a couple weekends ago when having a disagreement with Jesse. It hurt him, it hurt me, and there was no good that came out of it. I should have taken it to the Lord, and only Him. God is strong enough to be my very best friend regardless how much I pour out to Him and how incredibly selfish and sinful my thoughts can be at times. He loves me anyways and will lead me in the right direction. He knows my heart and will not take offense or misunderstand my meaning or intentions.
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. James 1:5